I had read an article by Nancy Campbell, "Protect Your Womb". I knew how important it was to keep my womb, even if I could not have more children. I also knew that my mom had a hysterectomy at a young age and suffered for it. I was only 34. We rolled into surgery about 40 minutes later, I was put under general anesthesia, not knowing what my "fate" would be, or that of my little one. At this point, I was in so much pain, that my pervading thought was RELIEF!! Here is the exact wording from the post-op report; "The rectus muscles were bluntly and sharply separated and the peritoneum was opened to an obvious hemoperitomeum and to an obvious uterine rupture. The amniotic sac was intact and was bulging into the abdominal incision at the time of entering the abdomen"

When I awoke, I did not see Jesus, so I knew I was alive and I immediately began to call for my husband and ask if my baby was O.K. I was informed that the baby was fine and a wept for joy. She was born with 8/9 apgar score. This was an absolute miracle as the statistics say that if a rupture happens and the baby is not out within minutes, they do not survive. I am so thankful that the Lord has a plan, that He works all things out for our good and His glory. We love Him because He first loved us and His hand of mercy is evident in all we do!! I was discharge from the hospital with strong words from the Doctor that I was not to have anymore children. She was unable to close all layers of my uterus and said that the womb would not with stand another pregnancy. I was risking my life and the life of the child if I were to have another baby. This was so emotional. After all we had trusted the Lord with the conception. What would this mean now?

The recovery went fine, but I am speculating that as a result of the trauma of the birth, I had a difficult time with my let down reflex and nursing. The baby was considered "failure to thrive." We prayed and sought the Lord. I used a supplement nurser filled with goat’s milk and studied to find out why this was happening. I finally discovered that the Pituitary gland is affected with blood loss and trauma. I began herbs to support this gland and within a couple of weeks the baby was thriving and gaining weight as my milk was ample. I nursed her for over two years. I am so thankful that as I knew more about "birthing babies" and the Lord gave sufficient grace that I was able to persevere through this challenging scenario.