To be honest, I did have to deal with fear. I mean, what would happen next? I studied the word. I noted everything I could find about God's character and finally found peace in WHO HE IS and His love for me. The birth of this little girl was a healing balm to our grieving hearts, souls and minds.

God opened the womb again and we gave birth to a healthy little boy 27 months later. We scheduled a repeat Cesarean Section ten days before the due date with the same Doctor. However, I did pursue the possibility of a VBAC but could not find a Doctor that would agree and definitely did not want to try a homebirth. When I walked in for my first visit with my previous Doctor, she was not as surprised but was definitely cautious. The section went fine and I went home the next day. Nursing went just fine and I finally learned the importance of pure Lanolin to heal blood blisters and make nursing less painful. I nursed this little one for over 3 years. This baby was born when I was forty.

By this time, I knew my chances of having more children was becoming less and less. I conceived and miscarried two babies. This was very emotional but I had to trust God and cling to what I knew to be true of Him. He loved me, has a plan for me and works everything for our good and His glory.  He is FAITHFUL!! I conceived in December of 2001 at the age of 42! I was thrilled. The circumstances in our life were very unsettled. My husband’s home business took a BIG hit after 9-11, we were forced to move when I was about 10 weeks pregnant. I was tired and dealing with the normal pregnancy stuff, but again, God was in it and was faithful to give all we needed. My mind boggles to see what one can endure when God is with us.